Well, dang, it’s been a long time! How the heck are you all? I’ve missed you. What have you been doing?
I haven’t been writing, because there’s been a lot going on (which there sort of has been, I went to BlogHer and before that felt like I was running around entirely too much doing those sorts of life things that take up time, but don’t make it into memory), but also because I’ve been feeling like this blog just doesn’t…fit me anymore.
And I don’t even know what that means.
I was asked a bunch at BlogHer what I blogged about. It’s the standard ice-breaker question. And each time I heard it I said, “…..oh, mostly…life. Raising my son…politics…” I stammered and felt like a deer caught in the headlights. So then I tried answering, “Gender politics and parenting.” Where I was mostly greeted with a deer in the headlights look. Which, quite frankly, made me feel awkward, but whatever.
I spent a bunch of time talking to Amy about how I spend too much time standing in my way when I sit down to write. That because the blog lacks “clear direction” when I sit down to write something political, or not-family, I get all worked up that someone else has surely written what I’m about to write and I’m sure they said it better and, and, and…blank space for 6 weeks.
Actually, I kind of know what I mean when I say the blog doesn’t fit – I wonder should I give it a new name? One that is more reflective of this being MY blog, instead of a post-marriage, post-baby blog that was originally loosely conceived to keep family up on what was happening with us.
I dunno. I’m in flux.
But, damn if I don’t have a lot to say.