Feminist Friday – Ani DiFranco – 1992

What if no one’s watching

… i always feel i have to
take a stand
and there’s always someone on hand
to hate me for standing there
i always feel i have to open my mouth
and every time i do
i offend someone somewhere

you know i can’t apologize
for everything i know
i mean you don’t have to agree with me
but once you get me going
you better just let me go
we have to be able to criticize
what we love
to say what we have to say
’cause if you’re not trying
to make something better
then as far as i’m concerned
you are just in the way

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My mood is matching the grey, cold day outside my windows today. I think Lucy has another tumor on her head; she has an appointment with the vet this afternoon. And kidlet has another rash. This one completely different from the one he had a few weeks ago. He went to the doctor on Wednesday and the doctor sort of scratched his head and said, “Let’s watch it. Call me on Friday.” It’s Friday. Rash got worse. I know rashes can drag you down the biggest diagnostic rabbit hole, but I hate hearing, “Well…let’s watch it.” I hate feeling like there is something wrong with my kid. And I wish I had an instinct that said, “He’s just kind of a funny little kid who gets the weird viruses,” or one that said, “He’s got some underlying autoimmune condition, chase this until you get an answer.” Instead I sit here and wonder if this is ‘normal.’ I feel like I did back in January, wondering what the hell is going on.

We have a birthday party to go to tomorrow, kidlet’s two best friends will be there. And one of my very best friends in the world is coming tomorrow night for a few days. Things will look up. What are you all doing this weekend?

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2 responses to “Feminist Friday – Ani DiFranco – 1992

  1. Hmmm, what a mystery the rashes are. Do you have a naturopathic doctor in your area? Here’s a link to finding one: http://www.naturopathic.org/AF_MemberDirectory.asp?version=1

    When things get complex, I think they tend to have better solutions/answers because they look at things in an interrelated way. A ND solved a friend’s major rash problem after it persisted for years and other doctors gave up (besides prescribing steroid creams).

    Anyway, he seems happy and content. Enjoy the weekend and try not to worry too much!

    • One of the reasons we picked O’s doctor is because he’s a DO and his practice is heavily homeopathic. I was hoping we would get more holistic care than we might in a traditional pediatric office. I’ve actually been thinking about switching from a family practitioner to a pediatrician. UGH. I need to stop getting so spun around by this stuff.

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